Buffalo River

La vie en rose

Thanks to someone special, I have a generous amount of Louis on my playlist. However, I couldn't focus on the music this morning, just that someone. These past few weeks have been so magical.

Picture: Smokers Association

Smoke & Mirrors

Who knows what tomorrow will bring,
Maybe sunshine or maybe the rain
But as for me, I'll wait and see
And maybe it'll bring my love to me.

-RJD2, Deadringer 2002

Picture: ALT Sounds

Free

Finals, the house of bows, Vitaliy Zavadskyy, sunrise on Ohlendorf, the urban jungle, everclear x2, train fun, pirates, DEA, and the unmentionables.

Happy!

I got ready tonight by candle light again.  I really didn't mind though, because I finished all of my work! I've been too stressed lately.  While working on my paper, I found www.Meat.org.  Watch the videos. Meet your meat! My research paper.

Picture: The Consumerist

Shine on you crazy diamond.

Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.

-Pink Floyd, Wish You Were Here 1975

Memories from a Shore

Well, after I ate I went outside

to catch some air

And to walk off my drink

And I rolled tabbacco

And watched as the smoke rolled

And magically like you left me.

And I made a firm fist and,

Pissed, thought it brilliant

To throw my hand into the door.

I knew I would have to
Admit that I was wrong

I decided to talk no more.

No, What an embarrassing way to go.

If you wrote a list

Of the times I considered

To swim in my heavenly home

And God and His angels

Are all under water

And callin' my name once for all

Oh and I had this hat

That I lost in September

I miss you less than that, you know.

Oh how can a man

Seek revenge on a woman

He wants to believe has no soul

No home.

No,

What an embarrassing way to go.

- Right Away, Great Captain!

It's Been A Long, Long Time

Three months have gone by since I've posted anything.  So much has happened.  I have no idea where to start.  Lets just say that everyday is like a broken record, playing the same thing over and over and over...

Picture: audiOh!

Rest In Peace

My black lab beauty, Pepper.
December 31, 1993 - October 17, 2009.

Such an unfortunate event to happen while visiting my home for the weekend. She was 2 months shy of being 16 years of age, so she was quite old. Luckily she lived a long, happy, wonderful life. I do miss her a lot though. She has been in my life since I was 2 years old.  How can I come home to no Pepper?  I can't even think about it without tearing up a little. Rest in peace little one.

Helianthus annuus

Kate's flowers

sigh

I am adrift in my own head and I need an urge to stand back onto my own two feet again.  Great metaphor, right? Joke. But in all seriousness, I don't know of a better way to put it.  I can't even describe what I'm trying to say.  I guess it's just apparent that I'm going through another struggle in life right now.  Oh well, it's college.  I'm sure it happens a lot.  Anyway, this beautiful photograph was shot by my lovely friend, Sha Collins. I thought it was considerable fitting.

“In the name of the best within you, do not sacrifice this world to those who are its worst. In the name of the values that keep you alive, do not let your vision of man be distorted by the ugly, the cowardly, the mindless in those who have never achieved his title. Do not lose your knowledge that man's proper estate is an upright posture, an intransigent mind and a step that travels unlimited roads. Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it's yours.”

- Ayn Rand

SharcPhotography 

fly

more ink & watercolor

Summer's gone

I do believe that summer is finally coming to an end.  The weather is chilling, the leaves are beginning to change color, school is becoming much more time consuming, and I myself have become much more studious.  I have no problem with this though.  It feels good to use my time with productive doings.  Time for chemistry lab!

fountain ink & watercolor

 

le nouveau vélo bleu

My new bicycle that I ride EVERYWHERE.

we the free

Mommy sent me a few things in the mail =)

 

 

FreePeople 

Happy Schwaggg!!

Schwagstock 42!!

I have no idea where to begin.

Hell

My life lately has been perpetually full of fury, agony, confusion, and disappointment.  The people I used to associate myself with have constantly been attacking me for my views, reputation, imperfections, and personal matters if you will.  I mean I understand if you disagree or have a concern about a specific issue, but they have all consisted of the same trend involving... rudeness?  I suppose thats the simplest way I can put it.  I could also mention hypocrisy, close-mindedness (a.k.a. ignorance), and egocentrism (a.k.a. complete selfishness! utterly disgusting).

Obviously nobody is "perfect," and fundamentally and in all actually, nobody is "right."  Who decides the distinguishment between what is ethically wrong and right?  I mean, if you are a Christian believer, then I suppose God indirectly tells you these things through the Bible.  But if by chance the Christian religion is a myth, then there really isn't a difference between right and wrong.  I suppose if you feel a sense of guilt, uneasiness, or shame, then the action/view is wrong.  If you feel as though the action/view is beneficial or positive, then you assume it is right.  It is crazy how personal and wound up people get about these issues, including myself.  I guess it is natural human instinct to defend your opinion and morals though.  Anyhow, the arguments have varied but when you analyze it down to the basis or foundation, the debate is wholly over morality.  What creates your morals?  I think it is perhaps how you were raised by your parents, what you were taught in school... perhaps how society/(the media) portrays the right decisions, political laws, or personal experiences.  Whatever the reason, everyone has a definite set of morals and views on particular, debatable issues. I wish everyone could be open-minded and considerate about others views, however.  Because nobody knows what is "right," nobody should condemn or hate someone for what they believe.  Everyone has been exposed to a moral/(view?) at different depths.  What I mean is, if you grew up in a Christian household and/or attended a religious school and you're a strong believer in the Christian faith, then your perspective of such matters is pretty set in stone and not very varied.  The chances of you being exposed to a different take on religion is not so great, so you perceive your views as the "right" way, and those who have views apart from yours are "wrong."  (Again, that was just a generalization/assumption based on experience and encounters.) I keep rambling on what is on my mind.  It is kind of a repeated circle of unending reasons and philosophies.  Hopefully I haven't offended anyone too much for them to curse at me again and condemn me to the dark weary place in their unconscious mind that they call Hell.  I guess I'm done here.  I still have so many questionable and noteworthy thoughts in my head that I'd like to share on here, but I'm too lazy and busy to continue.

Some simple yet truthful words.

"You can never win in an argument on religion or politics.  Everybody is an expert supposedly."

-My momma

Amazing day

Sooooooo, my mommy drove over here today to see me!  We went out to eat at the local Memphis Pizza Cafe then explored downtown a bit. We stopped by the Midtown Bike Shop, some boutiques, and American Apparel. I can't wait until she comes back. Her company just makes my day perfect! Here are some of the garments now in my possession. =)

 

 

 

AmericanApparel 

Dracaena Sanderiana

Here is my little baby.  My little lucky spiral bamboo plant (which is not actually real bamboo).  Anyway, today has been quite peaceful and serene.  I've been occupying my time studying, painting, and relaxing with my roomie and friends.  I have a paper that needs to be worked on; It's about the underlying themes and meanings beyond the content of the text in The Epic of Gilgamesh.  Philosophy and ethical history isn't really my thing.  Wish me luck!

Painting

I love it.  I think I'm going to start on a new piece after I finish studying.  The weather is so nice right now too.  Perfect?  I think so.